Tipi-Coal..

Have you ever stuck a Q-Tip so far into your ear that it makes you cough?.. It's weird.. I do it all the time.... For some reason, it only happens to the right ear though..... And believe me, I spent quite some time provoking the left ear.. but no dice... Things like this bug me.. I need answers... I'm the kind of person that stares at a dog and wonders if it can understand me.. actually telling it to do something like bark, or lift its paw if it does... I look into mirrors and wonder if there's anyone on the other side... and I wonder what compels a person to wear sandals (I hate feet)... Anyway... As I pan across the apartment.. I can't help but think of the set of Sanford and Son... Well... maybe a cross between Sanford and Son, and COPS... The consequence of that old philosophy.. "Why clean it?.. It's only gonna get dirty again.."... It's so funny though.. how certain "philosophies" won't dare transfer to another... "field".. You can go for days without cleaning your home.. but you still brush your teeth everyday.... You can pump premium, and keep the inside of you car spotless and smelling like cherries.. but you feed yourself french fries and sugar, all day (you know what I mean)... It's too bad that every area can't have its own epitome of relevance.. to everyone... But I think that this just kind of makes people who they are... Everyone's a character in their own right... Some are fun to watch... and some just make you want to change the channel...

From The Trenches...

I haven't been able to think straight lately..... No... You know what?.... I have.... But THAT'S what I don't like... I've grown quite fond of my incoherence over the past couple of years... I know too many boring people... too many "squeaky-clean" people.. too many fake people.. too many people that try TOO hard... I enjoy being able to weave in and out of anything "established"... At least I DID... I feel like I'm just waiting on something right now... I feel helpless... I feel like I'm living outside of myself... But once I'm outside... I'm nowhere... I don't even have the luxury of being on the outside, looking in.... I'm just gone... I can't serve myself, I know... But can I not at least cater to myself once in a while?... Is this against the "rules"?... Rules are no longer... "Rules"... once you gain perspective though... They just become like bridges on the way to... "privileges".. but are they worth it?.... YES!!.... YES!!!.... I KNOW!!.... but can't I catch a break?!... I understand what I'm dealing with, but I'm only human... I know that humans are morons... That's easy... I guess it's just like that.. umm... what is it?... "having a cake and eating it?".. That's such a stupid saying though... Why on earth wouldn't you eat your cake?... Maybe they should say, "Becky wants to have her cake.. eat it.. and then steal another one from the store and eat that one too.. even though she's diabetic...".. That would make a lot more sense... And you know what?.. With that..... I think I feel a lot better...