Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I'd Give You Everything I've Got, For A Little Peace Of Mind

I haven't been able to sleep so well lately.. At first, I just figured it was related to my soda intake.. So I didn't have any for weeks.. And that's a big deal because I drink about four liters of Pepsi, a day.. But I stopped.. And I still couldn't sleep; plus, I had massive headaches, as well as a demeanor like The Incredible Hulk.. So then I started again.. I have some next to me right now...... I lay down, but my mind races like a horse on coke.. Good thoughts.. Bad thoughts.. Hopes.. Dreams.. Goals.. Regrets.. Plans for the morrow.. Reflections on the previous day(s).. I can't stop it.. So I get up.. I watch TV.. I get online.. I strum my guitar.. I read.. I eat (in excess).. I try to sleep again, but no dice.. It's as though I have to reach the point of passing out.. There's no hope for structure in all of this.. I can't work, or plan, or make any kind of appointments this way.. I never know when I'll get the chance to sleep.. Why am I writing this..? Why are you reading this..? Maybe we're not so different, you and I..